We all have many relationships which are special to us. Those relationships become special because of some special reasons. Those reasons can be like, the people involved, sharing of same political, social, economical thoughts. Sharing same kinda interests like music, reading etc etc. Or just may be because you are such inseparable friends that you never got time to hault and think, what exactly is there in us which keeps us US :)
Its a strong belief in me that every relationship has a happy phase and ultimately that phase ends sooner or later. In every small to big relation I have with people around (other than my family & few selected frds who do not change forever) I keep on saying to myself again & again, whispering to myself that its a phase and it will end, it has to end. (though phase can be happy or sad but I am notifying here to a happy phase here).
With all the people I have known till date, the so as to say chemistry has changed with time in each relationship, which is the part I hate about relationships. Why god dammit people change with time? So now I always keep a small note in my mind repeating to myself that "its a phase, this shall change, this not permanent" and (try) & stop my heart to completely fall into it. And history does repeats itself every time. Things change, situations change, people change. Hence I am left crying (earlier I actually used to), feeling hollow & numb(I still feel now).
Sometimes that phase is long enough that you actually start feeling yeas, I have won this time and this relation is here to stay with me, like forever. And some are small and some medium.
There was (yeas was) such relationship where life had to show me that, it has to be like the rule and none of us in the relationship involved could help it but watch it ending. Yeas the happy phase ended, without intimating me this time. None of us till date has figured out, what exactly happened, why it happened. But that change in the relationship did leave some bitterness in me and now I really thank the person to be not here with me today. Thank you for not being here when I want to break the rule and have a pizza, thank you for not being here when I have fought with my bro and wants to bitch about him, thank you for not being here when I want to go out, have coffee on a rainy day in winter even when in office, thank you for not being here with me when I just dont wanna do anything but just talk to someone, thank you for not being here when I want to cry without any reason. This definitely makes me strong and makes my belief even stronger that "its a phase, it ends, sometimes really harshly, so I better not fall for it the next time"
I am really thankful to you my friend.
